After having watched the show over and over, it became a little less emotional at the very end. Though it still was but it wasn’t the same anymore. I knew where all the jokes would be. I knew what Chandler was gonna say next or Joey was gonna do next. It all became a little known already and the element of surprise went missing.
It was also a difficult choice to make when I started rewatching it for the third or fourth time, which season and which episode to watch. Everything I played, I knew it so well before hand that I didn’t wish to proceed. I felt like it was losing its charm, which could indeed never happen. After all its F.R.I.E.N.D.S.
The last episode specifically, has been watch so many times that there literally isn’t any explanation to what is felt while watching each bit of it. It all became so known though, the time when Monica and Chandler would find out they were having twins, or when Ross would accept that he was in love with Rachel, or when Phoebe and Joey would try to get Ross and Rachel back together, and the “I got off the plane.” Moment. It was all so well known. It is all so well known.
All that while, as I watched the last one for a hundredth time today, I felt that it isn’t there anymore. That we would just not cry on the last episode anymore. But apparently, that is something which can never happen. The truth is, we love all of them so much. They are a part of our lives. They affect us.
What really happened was that I got held back, once again. What held me back though, was the time when all of them put out their keys on the side board and leave the apartment. While I watched them climb down the stairs, I felt like the people I loved were going somewhere far away and would never return. They really didn’t. the apartment that was entirely shown again was a heart wrenching moment when I wished for all of them to come back.
They have all taught me so much. If only there was a way to thank all of them.